Feeling very negative about my body today. Need to go back to the basics with food. Bought hummus and carrot sticks today for some healthy snacking. I’ll go to the store tomorrow and get some more salad and some fixings for other healthy meals. I feel better about myself when I am eating healthy and working out on a regular basis and schedule, so for my own piece of mind, I need to do better. I am already worrying about my 3 week long spring break coming up. I’ll just remember to make the best choices I can, I’m bringing my running gear, and can do random body weight exercises and whatnot throughout the weeks. So here is to commitment. Towards actually trying to lose weight again. I’m not even comfortable where I am, and I was too comfortable being uncomfortable this past year as I maintained. I need to stop letting myself get in the way of things I want to achieve. I don’t have access to a scale out here, but how I am feeling about my body and how it’s looking is a measurement in it’s own. I will succeed. I will be happy. I will get to where I want to be.
Just stress ate a bunch of crap that I didn’t need. I knew I should not have bought those mini chocolate croissant like things, but I wanted to try them and now I have learned my lesson. I’ll consider this carb loading for when I hit the gym and pavement tomorrow for some miles and lifting.
Can’t take a photo of my dinner because i’m too lazy to get out my real camera, and i don’t have wifi right now so my phone it out. but believe me, it’s colorful and looks delicious. brown rice with cauliflower, broccoli, carrots, peas and corn. yum yum yum.
i have a big assignment due at 10am tomorrow, it’s now 6:38pm and I haven’t started yet. No sleep tonight. And the worst part, this class/assignment will not benefit me in my future AT ALL. I am so over school at this point, it’s not even funny.
Another 4 miles in the books, but this time in 44:43. Little baby steps towards becoming faster. Definitely major improvements from when I first started running, though. It’s a beautiful 60 degrees outs in London. Seemed so much warmer, definitely could have ran in a tank. It’s feeling like full blown spring time today, and I am loving it. Nice weather just makes me want to eat healthy foods, so let’s keep this going, shall we?
4 miles in 46:01. At the end of this run, I was remembering the first time I ever ran 4 miles. I remember I mapped out a route, and I knew once I got to the top of the “hill” in Grant Park and I would have completed my run. I remember wanting throw my hands up in the air, I was SO proud of myself. I remember telling my Gram about it and she was thrilled as well. I miss those feelings. I miss being proud of my runs and accomplishments. Hopefully with training for Chicago I will refind my inner self that will be proud again.
Legs are sore from yesterday’s workout. Need to warm up my muscles, stretch and head out for some miles. In reality, I just want to lay in bed all day, I’m just not feeling it. And I know sore muscles are a good thing, I love having evidence of a good work out from the day prior, but it doesn’t make for a good mindset for my run. We’ll see how this goes!
post- gym, post- sob fest with my sister via skype calls for an early night. it’s nearly 9pm, time to shower and then hop into bed with some netflix. i’m beyond exhausted. hopefully won’t set an alarm for tomorrow and i’ll be able to sleep off the day, the week..just sleep it all off. hoping to feel reenergized tomorrow!